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Mel last week told me that I should not try and be superman and that I need to make sure that I rest. I scoffed at such suggestions and figured that I could power through it. I am not sure how I managed to do it the first time through. State of mind is one…
I have been taking less pain meds as the days have progressed and for the most part it is quite manageable unless I do things that activate my core. This morning I went with a drive with Mel, and it was painful. It is hard to say whether it is her driving or the streets,…
When I was in high school I started watching F1 racing for some reason and my favorite team at the time was McLaren. In 1990 they won the championship with Senna but I was just a casual fan then. I would watch it on occasion. In 1997 Adrian Newey one of the best car designers…
This is my fourth day home from the hospital and I am starting to feel better. I am still annoyed that there is so much that I still can not do. Everyone says that this is expected as I have had major surgery. That is true, but I do not have to like it. I…
Tomorrow I am going in and there is a lot of unknown. I will give updates tomorrow as soon as I can. This evening has been a bit rough for me. I am feeling a lot of anxiety today. I am a bit fearful of what tomorrow may bring. Not as much for myself, but…
I was listening to this song and even with all of the hardships that I have gone through, I would not change a thing. They help shape you and build resilience. I think something that concerns people is wondering if you need help will there be people there to help you out or not. It…
I have not been feeling well today and I am not sure if it is because I am sick or whether it is subconscious anxiety from Tuesday. The reason why I am questioning it all is when I thought that we were 4 to 6 weeks out from knowing what was happening I felt great….
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Yesterday was quite the interesting day as I was at the hospital for quite a lengthy time. My surgery is now scheduled for 9am Tuesday morning. I need to register at 7am and I then sit around waiting in there until I go in. I am supposed to fast and stop taking vitamins three days…
I arrived at the hospital this morning in registration and saw a bunch of people that I know. One of them tried to cut in front of me with a larger number, but they say back down and patiently waited. We got to the part about preferred accommodations and she mentioned that if I did…
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I had a rather busy day today and it seemed like everything went by super fast. Xavier’s mask arrived and while most people tie in the goalie dangler to the mask I have always sewn the laces together so that they never come undone. The benefit of this is that it is pretty permanent and…