Blog of Random Thoughts
When I chat with Mel and my friends they are disheartened that something like this can happen to me. Mel articulated it saying that we try and do good, give back and be helpful. I am ok with this happening to me as opposed to someone else that I know. I have a strong network…
This morning while I was making coffee I realized where my anxiety and fear from last night came from. Last night my viewpoint on this was much different than the way I should be looking at this. I have always known that all of the literature and studies have shown that when cases like mine…
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I finally heard back from the surgeon today and have an appointment scheduled with him next week. I think that this is a positive as it would indicate that the oncologists have pressured him into considering this procedure even with the risks associated with it. The issue is that with this timeline it will still…
Read More “October 15th – Silence is so loud in the shadows” »
I had written yesterday in between my oncologist and my planning setup. Drinking the barium for the contrast sucked. It was just one cup, but the consistency was similar to a thick drink. Looking at it brought me back memories of drinking protein drinks during treatment. They told me that I had to drink it…
We just finished our appointment with the oncologist and there is not really any new information. Mel is sitting beside me so she might sneak some glances over at what I am writing. There was no new information really but we discussed what the options were. The doctor recorded the sessions for transcription so I…
Read More “October 10th – Does anything exist when we are not looking” »
I heard from one of my doctors today and I have an appointment scheduled in person on Friday with him followed up by a scan. I am assuming that I am going to get a tattoo to help mark to help line up radiology. Over the last couple of days I have been feeling quite…
Advocacy from doctors and yourself makes such a big difference. I am lucky that I have people advocating for me within the healthcare system and that they do not mind me reaching out with questions. I am supposed to hear back from my oncologist today on what we are planning on doing, but there has…
First off, let’s take it from the start….Have I ever mentioned that Mel advocates for my health far more than I do. I think it is safe to say that if it was not for Mel, chances are that I would be dead by now. I can think of multiple instances over the last 5…
Growing up I had to build a lot of resiliency. This started at a young age growing up on the mean streets of South Vietnam. I have told this story before, but as a child I loved eating spicy food. A treat that I use to eat was pineapple with a spicy salt. As a…
The post today is going to be quite different. As I have multiple appointments through our the day I will write my thoughts through the day and post later tonight. I came here early and the registration is filled. Normally it is a relatively quick process and things flow smoothly. This morning I sat next…