Blog of Random Thoughts
Last night Mel and I were talking about support and chatting about informing more people. I am not sure how it started, but we discussed the ring theory of support. Mel has to take on a lot and I told her that she could talk to me. She said no. That I was in the…
I tend to write these messages at the end of the day and then delay the post till the next morning. On Monday night Xavier had an exhibition game out in Capreol. Mel did not want to come so she made me venture there by myself. When Xavier is playing well he is a pleasure…
Yesterday I received a phone call from the hospital. One of my doctors called me to inform me of the cancer and to make sure I was aware. Our of all the doctors that I have this one is the most pragmatic and lays out the facts as they are. No sugar coating. Nothing. This…
I had to go buy some groceries today for dinner and for lunches tomorrow. As I was entering the grocery store a random guy asked me to buy him food. I declined and went in and bought everything that I needed. As I was heading out in saw him sitting there and I thought, why…
I spend a lot of time at the arenas. Every time Xavier has hockey it is a 3 hour commitment as he likes to be at the arena at least an hour early. On Saturday he was on the ice for 3 hours straight and Mel asked me if I wanted to come home. I…
The unknown is probably what is the most stressful part of this journey. You are left in the dark not knowing what the next steps are, what the plan is or if anyone is actually doing anything in the background. I am very fortunate that I know the healthcare system and know people that are…
When I first was diagnosed with cancer, I think that they recommended for me to find a support group of some kind. I do not remember the exact details. But I did join Cancer Connect. I recently tried to log back in and could not. Posts there are sometimes slow and far between, but I…
Having a close circle through difficult times is both a blessing and a curse. You get to lean on them to help you at your darkest hour. But at the same time you force them to live it with you. Their days are impacted just as much as your own. You could argue even more….
Even though that quote is attributed to me, Xavier is the one that said it. Today I started telling more people at work as my presence will have an impact on the work that they are doing. Everyone has been awesome and tell me to focus on my health and not worry about work. The…
I am actually writing this on the evening of September 9th, but will post it in the morning. I am writing out my thoughts as I go through this as self reflection of my journal and my thoughts. When I read back the first time I saw the shifts throughout and I am curious to…