Blog of Random Thoughts
Today it is a bit later than normal as there was a lot going on today. We were gone for most of the day yesterday as Xavier had a game out of town. He did not play up to his standards yesterday and he was not very pleased with himself. The team as a whole…
Yesterday I had my appointment to discuss nutrition and diet and it was actually quite a lot longer than I had anticipated it would be. She had remembered me from the first time that I had gone through treatment. It was evident that she had pressure to see me as soon as she could as…
Yesterday I received a text message from a friend of mine who works at the hospital. She asked me if I was in the building as the dietician was free to see me if I was there right then. Weirdly enough I was not hanging around the hospital waiting for potential openings. I am sure…
This morning while I was making coffee I realized where my anxiety and fear from last night came from. Last night my viewpoint on this was much different than the way I should be looking at this. I have always known that all of the literature and studies have shown that when cases like mine…
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I finally heard back from the surgeon today and have an appointment scheduled with him next week. I think that this is a positive as it would indicate that the oncologists have pressured him into considering this procedure even with the risks associated with it. The issue is that with this timeline it will still…
Read More “October 15th – Silence is so loud in the shadows” »
I have been dropping weight lately, but it is much slower than before I think. It is a bit concerning because I do not really have much room to lose more weight. I have been throwing up more, and Mel is concerned about it, but it seems that right after I eat I need to…
I tend to always listen to music while I am doing work, and I had a DAC (digital to analog converter) for sound on my computer because I like good sound. I was able to put voice and chats on different channels as well with independent controls so I could listen to one higher than…
Since I found out that I had cancer, I have always dreaded touching my belly button where the mass is. I am fearful of every time that I touch it, that it is going to be bigger. When I touch it now, that is what is the first thing that comes into my mind, that…
I had written yesterday in between my oncologist and my planning setup. Drinking the barium for the contrast sucked. It was just one cup, but the consistency was similar to a thick drink. Looking at it brought me back memories of drinking protein drinks during treatment. They told me that I had to drink it…
We just finished our appointment with the oncologist and there is not really any new information. Mel is sitting beside me so she might sneak some glances over at what I am writing. There was no new information really but we discussed what the options were. The doctor recorded the sessions for transcription so I…
Read More “October 10th – Does anything exist when we are not looking” »