Today is my first really bad day that I have had, and I realized it is ok. I was annoyed at first, but this is my 5th day, the Sunday when I am normally out completely. It bugged me because I tried to work, but physically struggled. I could not keep my eyes open and my vision was all blurry. I worked as much as I could but struggled. And I am learning to accept that. I know my physical limits now. It does not matter how much my mind wants to, if I physically can not I need to stop. Fortunately I have people that look out for me and told me to stop. Like my wife when I struggled to do a mouth rinse because I was so tired. I had a hard time spitting because of fatigue and I needed Mel to help clean up. Mel forced me to take a break and stop. My manager and team that told me to rest and take care of my health. I always think I can manage through it, but there are limits to what I can achieve. I am grateful that I have others that feel comfortable making need out on it when I am not able to.
It also makes me appreciate what I can do everyday. People struggle with the fatigue each day. This is the first day I can say I have not been able to work through it. 1/55 is not too bad. I need to make sure my appointments are on Wednesday as I can recover and not miss days. I normally spend day 4 and 5 recovering in bed or resting. The difficulty sleeping is what impacts things the most. It sets the day up poorly as I need to nap repeatedly through the day.
I am grateful for what I can do everyday and for those that tell me what I can not do and stop me, reminding me my health comes first.
Quoc Hao