I have not eaten well the last two days andy earlier observations of weight drop following a bad day of eating has been confirmed again. Each day that I do not eat a minimum of 6 meals will result in a drop of 1lb. Yesterday I did not feel well so it was understandable and the day prior I just felt full a lot. Hopefully today it is not too bad. I still feel tired today, as I did not sleep well last night. The skin around my belly is starting to feel irritated. I was aware of this as it feels like a sunburn and I anticipate that it is going to get worse as the weeks progress. It is bearable at times, but it is very irritating at others. I have cream that I apply but I am not sure how effective it is. I may need to put it on more during the day like Mel has suggested. I have not gone into my session today yet, but I think I need a nap afterwards. The cancer center parking lot was much more full than usual on a Monday morning at 7am. The main registration side was completely full at the time. So far I do not think thar radiation was as bad as chemotherapy. The effects of chemotherapy were worse I think and the two of them together was extremely difficult. I think I am starting to get the impact of decreased eating and I will need to figure something out with it. If I drink water it goes down well and I do not feel overly full. Anything else seems to sit much heavier and takes more time to digest. I can drink a cup of water easily in 5 to 10 minutes but it takes twice as long with other liquids. I will need to figure out a way to combat that.
Christmas is fast approaching and it seems like the holidays are not the same as they were when I was younger, both in the sense of preparation with the house and family and the atmosphere. We do a lot of our shopping online now and do not necessarily need to go to the store to buy things. Since I do not leave the house as much it seems that the Christmas spirit is a bit missing. This is also one of the first years in a while where we did not watch the Lions Telethon as we were out of town for hockey and there was a football game on that I wanted to watch instead. As of yet we have not donated any money to any charity, though it is possible that Mel has. I am kind of oblivious to a lot of things that are happening right now.
Treatment seems to be getting more difficult and I am starting to remember why I did not want to eat much the first time. It is uncomfortable. I have tension in my chest and stomach and always have the sensation of wanting to throw up. I am not sure if the food is not sitting well, but it makes it difficult to eat when it feels like it is sitting heavy and the food is not being digested easily. I may try and eat cream of wheat every morning as it is bland and sat fairly well the first time. I can not remember how I made it exactly the first time, but I will give it a try again. I may also try taking some of my nausea pills to see if that helps out at all, otherwise I am going to keep on losing weight. It seems that I have a lot of gas build up in my stomach that is causing bloating. I will need to monitor this situation to see if it gets better or not. Through the course of the whole day I never felt hungry or wanted to eat. I forced myself to eat several times but then the discomfort persists for quite a while afterwards.Even with all of this there is a lot of positives as I have a lot of people that are willing to help me out. Daily I have people asking me how they can make things easier for me. I appreciate the concern that everyone has for me at the moment. I need to figure out what adjustments that I can make now so that I can increase my food intake.
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