Today I had some visitors arrive at my house early afternoon and visit for the day. I was not too fatigued from the visit and was not too tired throughout the day. It surprised me a bit as in the previous weekend I was tired and last night I went out to watch the hockey game that my son was not playing in. Mel drove me there and I had a friend that lives close drive me home as our kids are on the same team. They had played a much better game last night and we got around to talking about playing with other kids and I had remarked that when Xavier is in net they play completely different. His son agreed and said that Xavier is a strong goalie so they do not bother coming back, but then there may be rebound or two and there is no one there to clear it. This is an interesting perspective, in the sense that for those goals, neither Xavier nor myself would blame it on his team. We view that as he did not control his rebound properly and allowed the other team the other opportunities. At the level that he is playing, this is not a skill that most of the goalies worry about. But this is what drives him to excel. No matter the situation, reflect on what is in your control and deal with that. Everything else is noise.
Throughout the years and as we have gone through numerous iterations of treatment that is something that Mel has come to expect from me at this point. She does not take it for granted but sometimes with everything that I do when I falter it does not seem right. The analogy is pretty simple, in the sense that I am like a battery that can not charge past 10% no matter what happens. I can be quick to drain but I have quite the limited capacity. Mel asked for some help last night with something that she deems easy like help make the bed. You do not realize how much strain there is on the abdomen during this process as you try and pull the fitted sheet taut. I tried to do it and failed and then Mel had to take over. I tried to do it, but I physically could not and Mel assumed that it was something that I could handle. As soon as I could not do it though she did not push me. I went to the kitchen to take care of the dishes. I was quite tired after that and was done for the evening. As the day has progressed today, my energy has not waned too much, but we spent most of the time lounging around a fireplace and reminisced about days past. This is a good sign to me as I was able to follow the conversation, contribute and not have a crazy impact on my energy levels. I am tired, but it is manageable and I am curious to see what tomorrow is like as I will rest tomorrow. If I start of the week well rested on Monday then that will be a good sign. I have to make it through 2 more weekends before I make it Ottawa and so far it has not been too bad on the weekend. I have pushed myself and have come through ok. Last night it was a late treatment and I managed to go to the game, help out a bit at home and be ok for today. Next week will be a test to see if I can save energy reserves for the future.
QHM