Mel insisted that I go in on Monday and mentioned that I would agree to listen to her. She still thinks I am too stubborn. Realistically I only had dangerous dehydration and no immune system and low levels across the board. My score for white blood count was 0.2 yesterday and today it is 0.4 and the score that I need is 10. Something that would be easy to treat if you had access to a 24hr home nurse, pharmacy and some one to do blood work every 4 hours. I think it would have been totally doable. I am glad that I came in and I have been doing much better while I am here. Eating really sucks and I can take bites of food before it hurts. Drinking is not as bad and coconut water and cranberry juice sits well. I am going to try and brave the ensure our boost at some point today. I have shot taste buds so just need to deal with the texture. If I can get by that it will be smooth sailing. The doctor came by this morning as he said I need to avoid the public and to wear a mask. He expects me to be here till Friday because we do not have our own nurse, lab and pharmacy at home. The room here is a third of the size in Barcelona and the care here is not at the same level, so he wants to get better and out as soon as it is safe.
I appreciate all of the well wishes this week and all the people stepping up to help out with things. We could not have done this without so much support. This week has been very tough on me as I try to figure out what I can power through and what I can not. Mel wanted to try and power through eating. That one is tough because of the pain of eating makes it so tough. This morning they brought me an egg bite and some potatoes and I managed to get through 1/4 before the texture was too tough and I had about 5 pieces of potatoes. The food at the hospital is actually getting better as they brought in people to help out with that. Mel brought our portable Crock-Pot to heat up some food and I had some cream of wheat after. It is not good but I know that i tolerate it will and it has a pretty blonde flavour profile. I can eat 4 bites of that so I had that as my snack and has some cranberry juice afterwards. This afternoon I am going to try the boost juice again and see how I cope with that. I am fare more cognitizent this morning and have been up for most of the morning and took a short nap around lunch. I do not feel overly exhausted so I can see the ending on the other side. I am not sure why I am so foolish at times and try to fight it, but I think I also fail to see how bad of a state that I am.
The kids have seen the good and bad sides of all this in the past week and I hope that they can deal with this all. They know that I tend to fight through all of this so being admitted to the hospital is not necessarily a bad thing. I also wonder if either of them have looked up the blog and read it as they both are aware of its existence. At their age I am just not sure of their interest. The lesson that I would want them to know that it is very important to try and battle through this, but sometimes you may not recognize how bad things are and you need to listen to your loved ones. I am quite stubborn and that has failed me on numerous occasions. I think it is only a brief interlude and my body can recover from this. It can not. I need intervention.
Q