We had our game this morning against a team that normally play in a league above ours. We got crushed and the difference in play was astounding. I think if Xavier stood on his head it would have helped a bit. They got some early goals with tips and screens in front of the net. By the end of the game we were outshot 32 do 7. I was anxious this morning and my stomach was on edge. I wanted to see them advance, but they would have needed some miracles. I tried to eat as best as I could today but I am not sure if I did a great job today. Before the game this morning Xavier was saying that he might break his streak. Ever since he started playing goalie he has won a game MVP at least once in each of his tournaments that he has played. I figured the motivation would be enough and he could will his way to a win. He has done it in the past, bit today was not to be. The good thing is that he will adjust to this team and be better next time. He knows which hand all of the good players on the team shoot and he will review the footage of the game. Xavier also maintained his streak with game MVP and tournament MVP.
I have been in a bit of a pensive mood today with the anxiety of the game and upcoming decisions. I wondered how would Xavier play, would he be able to elevate his game and carry the team to a win of his team does not play well. The kids on the team have a lot of faith in him and he is strong enough mentally to handle it. I wonder how that will translate to his future and what type of resilience he will have if I take a turn for the worse. Previously I never worried about the future and what it may bring, looking at thinga day by day. Today, I wondered how am I setting up my kids for success in the future. Olivier spent the weekend creating a game in scratch that tracked your head movement to play a game of pong. Mel told him that I would be interested in that as I did something similar with measuring brain activity. I see myself in both of my kids and I wonder if I have enough time to try and guide them in their development. I have spent so much timing mentoring others and it seems that my own progeny will not get the benefits of my experience.
As we travel home I realized the discomfort that I have in sitting for extended period of time. As I have no more fat on my body and it is all bony, the chairs are not all that comfortable for me. I have purchased a gel cushion to hopefully alleviate this a bit more. Today was a rough day as movement made things a bit worse. I think some of it is mental as well. We ate Korean BBQ and I did not overeat, but then we traveled to Adonis to pick up some things and I ended up vomiting outside. I did not feel great and it continued for the rest of the trip home. Mel ended up driving once we approached Barrie and I was in charge of snacks. That did not go well as bending over put strain on my stomach and I did not feel well for the rest of the trip.
I will write more tomorrow as this evening I do not feel all that great. We had people who have helped out a lot this weekend and I will give my gratitude for them all tomorrow.
Q