I am a bit surprised that I have been able to maintain my weight with all.of my episodes with eating lately. Today I am riding the edge and I feel full all of the time on the verge of throwing up. As soon as I feel that I can eat, I have eaten a bit as to try and push myself. Yesterday I realized that when I do not feel great if I stand up or helps out a bit, so that has been my new trick. If I went to my office at the university I could use my sit/stand desk for it. The faculty are on strike however and I do not want to cross a picket line considering that I can work from home. I think that pushing myself slowly during the day will help me out in the long run if I can manage the balance correctly.
We won our hockey game yesterday and Xavier played well enough. He let in a goal that he thought he should have had and the ref called a goal on a non-goal. Confidence makes such a difference in outcomes. Xavier has been playing with a lot of confidence lately and his team has a lot of confidence in him. The hockey community is small and all of the kids know each other. Xavier has a good reputation for being nice amongst the kids and it amuses me when kids on the other team think he is great and difficult to score on. Depending on which side you are on you are Xavier has an obstacle that is difficult to overcome or a stable rock that you trust. I was reading something in passing and when you know you have stability and something that you can trust you do not worry as much and you have less stress. That is how kids who have played with Xavier feel.
At home, Mel is the anchor that keeps the house running well. She normally is on the ball for things but will occasionally slip. Xavier had to get vaccinated today or face suspension from school. We forgot to tell him that i would pick him up. We assumed that he would know. I sent him a message telepathically this afternoon telling him to not take the bus. I sent texts as backup as well. Shockingly, both failed and I called him when he had not shown up and I got a hold of him prior to him getting on the bus. We got him to his appointment on time. This is an example of whether it is fair or not, the assumption is that Mel would take care of it. She will be gone for 3 days traveling for work and I will be responsible for getting Olivier ready in the morning with making sure he is in his schedule. I tend to be more strict than Mel and I make sure he is ready 10 minutes before he has to leave. Mel will need to provide some details on what needs to be done because I will not know. I thought we had magic elves running around the house at night taking care of things, but one night I noticed it was just Mel, doing laundry, starting the dishwasher and getting things ready for the next day. That burst my bubble. No wonder she likes sleeping so much.
I have my CT scan on Thursday and hopefully it comes back clear. I would like a break before I have to go back and do some more treatment. I think every 5 years is a good schedule for me to adhere to. I figure that within 10 years they can come up with a cure.
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