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When I was in high school I started watching F1 racing for some reason and my favorite team at the time was McLaren. In 1990 they won the championship with Senna but I was just a casual fan then. I would watch it on occasion. In 1997 Adrian Newey one of the best car designers…
This is my fourth day home from the hospital and I am starting to feel better. I am still annoyed that there is so much that I still can not do. Everyone says that this is expected as I have had major surgery. That is true, but I do not have to like it. I…
Tomorrow I am going in and there is a lot of unknown. I will give updates tomorrow as soon as I can. This evening has been a bit rough for me. I am feeling a lot of anxiety today. I am a bit fearful of what tomorrow may bring. Not as much for myself, but…
I was listening to this song and even with all of the hardships that I have gone through, I would not change a thing. They help shape you and build resilience. I think something that concerns people is wondering if you need help will there be people there to help you out or not. It…
I have not been feeling well today and I am not sure if it is because I am sick or whether it is subconscious anxiety from Tuesday. The reason why I am questioning it all is when I thought that we were 4 to 6 weeks out from knowing what was happening I felt great….
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Yesterday was quite the interesting day as I was at the hospital for quite a lengthy time. My surgery is now scheduled for 9am Tuesday morning. I need to register at 7am and I then sit around waiting in there until I go in. I am supposed to fast and stop taking vitamins three days…
I arrived at the hospital this morning in registration and saw a bunch of people that I know. One of them tried to cut in front of me with a larger number, but they say back down and patiently waited. We got to the part about preferred accommodations and she mentioned that if I did…
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I had a rather busy day today and it seemed like everything went by super fast. Xavier’s mask arrived and while most people tie in the goalie dangler to the mask I have always sewn the laces together so that they never come undone. The benefit of this is that it is pretty permanent and…
Things next week are going to be interesting. On thursday I find out what time my surgery is scheduled for next week. If things do not go well then I will be done fairly quickly and if things go well then I will be there for a much lengthier amount of time. I will be…
I am a bit tired today still. I did not realize that we were gone yesterday for approximately 12 hours. A very bad habit I have when I work is losing track of time. This morning I was working on some things and time slipped away from me. I use to have my Mac tell…