Blog of Random Thoughts
When I chat with Mel and my friends they are disheartened that something like this can happen to me. Mel articulated it saying that we try and do good, give back and be helpful. I am ok with this happening to me as opposed to someone else that I know. I have a strong network…
This morning while I was making coffee I realized where my anxiety and fear from last night came from. Last night my viewpoint on this was much different than the way I should be looking at this. I have always known that all of the literature and studies have shown that when cases like mine…
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I heard from one of my doctors today and I have an appointment scheduled in person on Friday with him followed up by a scan. I am assuming that I am going to get a tattoo to help mark to help line up radiology. Over the last couple of days I have been feeling quite…
Growing up I had to build a lot of resiliency. This started at a young age growing up on the mean streets of South Vietnam. I have told this story before, but as a child I loved eating spicy food. A treat that I use to eat was pineapple with a spicy salt. As a…
Last night Mel and I were talking about support and chatting about informing more people. I am not sure how it started, but we discussed the ring theory of support. Mel has to take on a lot and I told her that she could talk to me. She said no. That I was in the…
I tend to write these messages at the end of the day and then delay the post till the next morning. On Monday night Xavier had an exhibition game out in Capreol. Mel did not want to come so she made me venture there by myself. When Xavier is playing well he is a pleasure…
I am actually writing this on the evening of September 9th, but will post it in the morning. I am writing out my thoughts as I go through this as self reflection of my journal and my thoughts. When I read back the first time I saw the shifts throughout and I am curious to…
Cancer patients are told that they need to advocate for themselves. If you do not then you may potentially get lost in the system. Previously there were system navigators to help patients navigate the system. When you are going through this, it is not always clear what you are suppose to do at each step,…
When I first found out about the cancer and was told that I could expect to be off of work for 6 to 9 months it seemed like such a long time. One of my friends told me that the time would fly by and before you knew it, the time would pass. It did…
Our support system is incredible. My sister-in-law and brother-in-law were going to come help put up the Christmas lights at our house today, and Mel’s uncle walked over to assist as well. Some things came up and Mel’s sister had one of the boys not feeling well so her uncle and her put them all…