My sleep has not been great lately as I get up in the middle of the night. It seems that my body decides at that time that a bowel movement is urgent and it wakes me up. I could go back to sleep but I take it as an opportunity to eat. This may also be training my body to think that it is ok and to keep this trend up, but it is difficult to give up an opportunity to eat. Last night it backfired on me a bit. It seemed that I had a lot of acid reflux and it was difficult to sleep. I have noticed that while my energy and mental capacity seem to be doing well, physically I can see the impact that the cancer is having on me. When standing up straight and doing anything, after 45 minutes or so my abdomen starts to bother me. I can sit down without issue and it does not make much impact but standing around I seem to get pain after a while. I first noticed it last night when I was doing dishes and then today as well. I am not exactly sure what is causing this issue. I do not know what it is related to, but I will need to monitor it.
We had told Olivier about the pong game I made that used brain activity to play. All that we had told Olivier was that it would measure brain activity and the more calm you were, the larger your paddle got. As you got stressed out the paddle got smaller. You could choose to move left or right. He asked who in the family would be the worst and I told him that I would easily be the worst in the game because it measured alpha waves to determine how relaxed you are. My brain is always under heavy activity and rarely shows as being in the resting state. He asked if we extended to our larger family and I told him that I would still be the worst. The interesting part was he extrapolated this information and said that you could use this game to help people learn how to relax. This was one of the original intents and I had never shared it with him at all. He figured this out on his own once we told him some of the parameters of the situation and to him it all seemed so obvious and logical to use this in that way.
Over the weekend Xavier wanted to invest some of the money that he was going to earn from Chinese New Years into some new funds. He did his own research to determine what he wanted to invest in and consulted with my sister. My sister asked him why he wanted to invest in what he chose and he laid out his logic and said well this is obvious. He explained how he looked at the data and discussed trending and put logic into it. I am sure that he watches and reads things on stocks so he understands what is trending higher. I actually hope that he has some set backs at some point so that he can learn from it. From his conversations that we have had, if the prices drop dramatically he would not freak out and understands that stocks go up and down and he is playing the long game and not short term for now. It is nice to see how analytical he is and how he understands trending and how you can not react to trends because of small blips here and there.
It was entertaining to see the way that both of the kids think and how it reflects the way that I would process information. Hopefully they can pick up the good traits and not have too many of the bad traits. Xavier is way more athletic and given the choice he would always be playing a sport. Olivier would be programming or designing something if given the opportunity. We are lucky that they are both privileged where Mel and I can afford to give them all of these opportunities.
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