It has been 4 months since info8nd out that my cancer was back. I have had surgery and have completed my radiation treatment now. I get a lot of questions about what is next and what the prognosis is. All that we can do now is wait. The surgeon is not very hopeful and says that the cancer will come back as if is only a matter of time. With the spread and location within my abdomen there are remnants that are floating around, but you can not see it. The oncologists are in a wait and see if we can catch it mode. Once we see it or we know about it we can then treat it. This radiation treatment focused on the known location by the belly button that they did not remove. I am a bit concerned with my eating as if I do not increase it, it may be a sign that the cancer is still present. Either unexplained weight increases or decreases are a bad sign. If I am eating more than the increase in weight makes sense, otherwise it may be a concern. I realized that this week I have felt more tired than I have in previous weeks and find it more difficult to write. Interestingly I have moments when I know what I want to write, but when I have time to do it I have not written about it. I am tired and write more of the facts as they are and that is about it. Hopefully that changes next week and I am a bit better.
A couple of days ago I received a gift from a friend. She sent me a salt pig that she had made as well as some salt. I think I have said it before, but we have quite the large collection here. I think in have over 40 different types of salt. The one that she got me is actually different from anything that i have. It is a finishing salt that is very flaky. I will need to buy some nice meat and then use it with that. I appreciate that people are thinking of me and send me gifts and things. People have been super generous and there are times where I missed out on thanking people because Mel received it and I did not find out for a couple of days. I am not always cognizant of every thing that is happening within the household.
Xavier has a game tonight and I will be going there soon enough. Then tomorrow we travel to Blind River and Manitoulin on Sunday. I am feeling much better now after I took a nap at 3pm and I think that I want to make some bread tonight so I can bake up some small buns to take with me tomorrow as we travel. I will bring some cheese and charcuterie and can eat that when we travel as opposed to stopping and eating fast food along the way. On Monday I am going to start working out lightly with Xavier and see if I can start to add some more muscle mass. I know that this is going to end up changing my metabolism and body drastically, but what I did last time was too slow for weight gain and I stopped after a period. Hopefully this time I can get higher for my weight.
QHM