This is the last week of treatment. Two more after today and I was a bit shocked at how tired I was today. I know that we have just come back from a trip where I was out and about, but I did not really expect to be so tired today. After treatment I did some work for a couple of hours and then had to take a quick nap because I was a bit fatigued. I think that being out and about for 5 days and then traveling back did not really provide me much time for recovery. Today I had a delivery of some equipment to monitor my health via some various metrics to better understand things that are happening. I have some other systems that do the same, but I am using multiple now to try and better understand how my body is reacting to things. I need to really understand any shifts as early signs. Mel was a bit concerned because after my shower I was reviewing metrics for accuracy. She was worried that I was throwing up in the washroom. I had thrown up on Saturday so it is a legitimate concern for her. Today they had schedule for me to meet with a nurse but I declined because I did not want to wait an hour for the nurse when she would just relay information to the doctor.
Last week prior to leaving for Ottawa I had brought them a jar of shortbread cookies. I had intended to bring some things back from Ottawa for the staff but I got busy and did not see anything really appropriate. This morning I had new staff and one was a student. It was amusing as the student addressed me as Mr. Mach as opposed to everyone else there that knows me and just calls me Q. I should have corrected her and said it is Doctor to see how she reacts, but she seemed a bit serious so I did not think it was appropriate to stress her out. Over the weekend at one of the team meals I had shown some of the parents on the team photos of me prior to cancer and they were quite shocked at the size difference between now and then. I am a bit concerned right now as my body seems to keep getting smaller and smaller. Sitting in a chair for an extended period of time is not super comfortable because I am so bony. Last night I woke up at 3am, with the feeling that I had to vomit. It was like acid reflux and it makes me up. I have never thrown up from it, but it has happened a couple of times and it is a bit disconcerting. It passes really quickly and I am not sure what is causing this as I do not feel full nor are there any thing that I can pinpoint on why it is happening. We had dinner at my parents place and Xavier recorded a video of me saying that I would start taking a shot of Boost when we got home. I did it and it was a bit of a struggle. I drink it as a shot and as fast as I can. It is not pleasant and I do not think that I can have more than one shot at a time. Prior I did not feel nauseous but afterwards I do. I still need to eat tonight so I am not sure if I am going to waste a pill or try and eat whatever. My weight is decreasing still and I need to stop it and get it back up. I also need to decrease my activity and increase my caloric intake. The new health tracker I have will monitor all of my activity and hopefully help me track my caloric output so I can figure out how to increase my intake.
I am tired tonight and thinking is fatiguing me. I am going to come back and read this one day and I will need to figure out if there is a discernable pattern to things. Last week I do not remember being so tired. I am going to bed early tonight and on Thursday I am going to sleep in an not get up at 6am.
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