I have been taking less pain meds as the days have progressed and for the most part it is quite manageable unless I do things that activate my core. This morning I went with a drive with Mel, and it was painful. It is hard to say whether it is her driving or the streets, but I am in a lot of pain whenever she does most of the driving. I am not sure how much driving I will be doing for the next week or so as moving is sometimes a bit painful, so erring on the side of caution seems to be best. Eating is much different now then how it was for the last couple of weeks. I never feel like I am going to throw up, but I also probably do not push myself very far either. I am being more cautious as all of the warning signs from the last 6 months have changed now. Mel mentioned that physically having the cancer out is probably making a major impact to it, which I agree. I am still concerned about the white fluid from the lymphatic system, but we will deal with that when we have more information. For now it does not seem to be impacting my eating so I figure that is a good thing. I should take a look at the report and see if it says anything about him removing all of it or just sampling it. It is not supposed to be there and a build up of it is not a good sign.
Ever since I was young my parents would try and sneak things into my food or change up. I have been eating a silken tofu pudding with a ginger syrup. You can get it as Chinese restaurants and my dad use to make it all of the time. Last time we were in Toronto he asked the people to help him get the proper ingredients and he tried 3 times and failed to make it from scratch. He saw a hack online that said to use eggs to get the texture right. The texture worked as it was soft and custard like but I could taste the eggs and did not like it. I love seafood and there are some things that I do not mind a pork seafood mix but I am a purist for a lot of desserts and food that I really enjoy. Creme brulee is one of my favorite desserts and I will eat it or order it if it is vanilla. If it is any other flavour I have no interest in eating it. Well I tried the egg version and I liked the texture but disliked the subtle egg flavour and smell. Olivier is probably as picky as I am if not more so. He will eat food and say it would be good if it was not so bland and that it needs this or that. I laugh and give it a try and I must say that so far I have agreed with his assessments. Both him and Xavier enjoy cooking so I think it will be fun to have everyone taking turns to cook in the kitchen. Maybe everyone except Mel will enjoy it as I am not sure how much she will enjoy having her cooking judged, even though she does make some delicious things. My kids take after me in that they like to cook and what they may not realize is that I have made mistakes with cooking growing up. It is something that everyone will experience as they learn.
The longer the pathology reports take, generally the better things are. Generally when you do not hear from a doctor it is good news, but for the next couple of weeks I will not be sure if the news that I hear from the doctors will be to say the pathology is all clear or not. If everything is all clear than I think we will start planning for Paris next year again, as long as I am not going through chemotherapy or radiation for a couple of months. I need time to recover my strength and get healthy enough that I can go out gallivanting for 8 hours a day.
So far today I have not taken a nap yet, not do I feel the need to. I did not sleep well last night, but that is not too big of a deal for me at the moment as I am starting to feel much better. Hopefully I will sleep better tonight and I can also try and work a full day tomorrow. Things are starting to get back to normalcy as much as they can. I just need to figure out how to heal faster.
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