I lied. So when I had said that it was going to be clear sailing for 4 to 6 weeks while I waited to hear when surgery is? Yeah, that is not the case. I should have known better though really. Why would it take me 4 to 6 weeks when that is normally how long it takes. This puts a slight wrench into plans as Mel was supposed to be out of town next week for a leadership meeting. She is going to take that time off now so she can hang out with me in the hospital. I think that I may be disappointed if I am not there for a couple of days. It would have meant that she is taking time off and there is not much for me to recover from. She had also mentioned that she would not be able to concentrate if she was there. I am not sure exactly why though. I am the one that i being cut open and I am pretty sure that I am going to excel at it. I just fall asleep and then wake up hours later. Super simple and easy. I do understand her concerns though. I am not sure how I feel about this at the moment. I was hoping that I could live in blissful ignorance for a little while. If things go smoothly and they remove my belly button things will be awesome and we can progress as planned.
My concern right now is the fallout if they open me up and they see that it has spread. At this moment I am not sure how to react to that. I had pushed those thoughts aside and said that we will deal with it afterwards, but as things are moving now the reality is going to come up quickly. If there are no visible masses I think that I would be ok, if it is just free floating and has not set anywhere then we can figure something out as it has not seeded anywhere. If it has seeded everywhere then the treatment option is how do we slow down the growth. We may not be able to eliminate it, but we will try and control it. The fact that it took so long to grow is not a bad sign at least. If it is slow growing and does not attack any major organs I think I can hit 70. I just need a 1% chance and I am golden! With odds that high I am sure that I can succeed.
We were supposed to get our appliances delivered on Thursday, but now I have my preadmission appointment on Thursday so we will be delaying the delivery now until November 11th. We should still be getting the countertops and backsplash installed this week. They had mentioned that it is preferred to install all of those things without the appliance in the way so it is easier for them. I am not sure why exactly, they counters and back splashes should be light at 600 or so pounds. The date for the appliances has now been pushed out until November 11th as everything should be in by then and I will no longer be in the hospital. When they called me for preadmission they had told me that I should be providing them with a contact for pick up once it is done. I asked if it was a day procedure and she corrected herself saying that I would be kept overnight. I think that in the event that it is a quick procedure and they do find it has spread that I would prefer to go home that same day. I do not want to stay in the hospital longer than I have to.
I am grateful for the speed of service that I receive here. There are so many stories about how people get lost or delayed with their treatments and i have always had exceptional service here. I do not always know whether it is because of my connections of the service itself. If people are pulling strings in tbe background I am grateful for their assistance.
My eating schedule is so dependent on things that are sometimes out of my control. Today I assumed that we would have some leftover dumplings from yesterday, but alas the kids ate them all for breakfast and took them to school. I as assuming that there was going to be some left and I could have eaten them quickly prior to my meeting. That was foolish on my part as by the time my turn came around there was no more left. I could have put a couple aside in the morning in order for me to eat some. I appreciate everything that my parents do. They bring us food whenever we ask and will make anything to order for us. That is how they have helped out during all of this time with delivering food for us when the kitchen is not accessible. Everyone loves their food so it is a win for everyone. My parents feel that they are contributing and all of the workers here enjoy the food. When our kitchen is out of commission we will need their help even more. I think that we may end up going a couple of days without a working sink, so that will be interesting. Thanks to everyone who has helped us out so far.
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