I tend to write these messages at the end of the day and then delay the post till the next morning. On Monday night Xavier had an exhibition game out in Capreol. Mel did not want to come so she made me venture there by myself. When Xavier is playing well he is a pleasure to watch. In control and making saves look easy. He played very well and made a lot of clutch saves in the third period as we were outshot 11 to 4 and we ended up squeaking out a win. I had my CT scan earlier that day and drank the contrast so was not able to eat much at dinner. We had sushi. I brought some with me to the arena. While at the arena I ate it during the 2nd intermission. 4 pieces of sushi rolls. I thought that it was not a bad amount and threw out the rice for my last piece of nigiri. Contrary to popular belief I can be an idiot at times when it comes to my health. I may be brilliant at times. Not so much at taking care of myself. I have people that always look out for my best interests though. At the end of the game as I got up I was not feeling so great and ended up throwing up. I thought I was fine to drive home and be good. One of our friends on the team who is a nurse thought otherwise and threatened me with a stern glare and informed me and voluntold another parent that they were going to drive me home as they did not think I should. We obliged. I did not want to face her wrath and Mel especially if something happened. This is a case where I will think I am fine, but there what do I know. I know that if I made a phone call to any of my friends that they would have happily come and driven me home, no questions asked.
On the drive home we were discussing how the game went and everyone thought that Xavier played really well as he made several 2 on 1 saves and made a bunch of big saves at the end while our team was scambling. Our driver asked Xavier how he thought he played and in typical Xavier fashion indicated that he did not play well as he made a bunch of mistakes. When asked what, he said he let in two goals. We had a discussion on what happened and how he could have prevented it in the future. It is our ritual after every game. The intent is to learn and try and avoid it. He is fully aware that A is average as he is born from an Asian parent. His save percentage was not 100% so he cried all the way home while I told him that he has brought shame to the family name. Incidentally no one has actually said it to him when he lets in a goal even though I have repeatedly told people to do it. He would laugh if someone actually did. This is a wonderful example of how I am surrounded by people who are willing to help me out in any way, even when I am sometimes too foolish or stubborn to ask for help. I appreciate the people that always look out for me.
We received back channel information about what is happening with my treatment today as well. I have an appointment with my oncologist on the 29th. Hopefully someone will call and tell me this prior to my appointment. They think that by then the results of my CT scan will be in. Both of the oncologists I have spoken with seem to think that it may be localized and then the treatment will be surgery first. If it is systemic than we will test it another way. So matter of factly. We need to wait for the options. I appreciate people doing all sorts of things in the background to help me out. Chatting with one of my friends today they mentioned that I will always help people out. I would help out any of my friends in need and Mel is always bemused at how many people I randomly decide to help with things. If they come to my house she is nice to them as I tend to be hard on them. Apparently I am mean when I teach. Is it my fault if they burst into tears when I tell them that they made a mistake.
It is very difficult to succeed in life on your own. A lot of people do and you hear stories of every thing that they had to overcome, but when you have the support and love of a community where everyone contributes and helps each other you can all achieve greater things. I believe this and I know that I would not be where I am today if it was not for everyone who has helped either my family or myself personally. I am not religious myself, nor do I really adhere to any religion, but I understand the reasons why people have faith. I have a lot of people praying for me and I appreciate the sentiment. During our wedding rehearsal, the Deacon who married us threw Holy water on me and I remember it burning a whole in my clothing and skin. Ever since then I respect the power of prayer. If he could throw water on a heathen like me think of what will happen when I have so many people pray for me. It is pretty much guaranteed that I will beat cancer.