I am actually writing this on the evening of September 9th, but will post it in the morning. I am writing out my thoughts as I go through this as self reflection of my journal and my thoughts. When I read back the first time I saw the shifts throughout and I am curious to see the patterns within it. I want o understand how this time differs from the first. I am a scientist first and foremost with thirst for knowledge.
Going through something like this. You really find out who your friends are and it tests your own resilience and the support structure that you have built over the years. On the first day I told just over 10 people I think. A couple of close friends who are dear to me and some work people. The second call was to a work colleague as we were in the middle of booking a flight and I did not want him to book it when I was unsure if I could go.
Something that amused me was that several people asked if I needed money and told me that they would take care of anything of required. Financial difficulties is a huge issue if you can not work. Especially during major home renovations. I appreciate the gesture and I am quite blessed by my circle. A friend of mine offered the first time as well. My parents offered last time as well. Money is the least of my worries at the moment. I am more concerned about the impact that this has on my friends and family. I am blessed to be surrounded by so much love and I want to reassure them that I got this. I am not worried about this. With the amount of positive energy surrounding me I am quite confident that I will beat this. I am not going to die from cancer. Maybe from a robot uprising created by the rise of AI. But not from something as boring as cancer. I see this as an opportunity to hang out with my friends at the cancer center again. Like good old times.
I have not officially heard what is going to happen yet, but I expect a flurry of phone calls within the next couple of days. It is going to be difficult holding this secret in until we know more information and I think that people will be in shock when they find out. It is not my intent to withhold from everyone, but I am also aware of what my circle is like and everyone will try and help out in whatever way they can.
I am grateful to be surrounded by such great people. I am grateful to have so many people provide support. I am grateful that when I actually do reach out that everyone helps without any excuses or conditions. I am grateful for the life I have lived so far. I am grateful to see what the future holds. No matter what is thrown it is going to be quite an adventure.