I am still struggling today and I do not like it. I think that it may be due to me having difficulties eating, as that is impacting my energy levels and leading to fatigue. There is a lot of food where the texture is not sitting right and it makes me not want to eat. When I can get by the texture issue, the food is not making me feel great so I am not sure what to do about that for now. The one thing that has been relatively safe for me to eat has been soft tofu with a ginger syrup and I ate the rest of it this morning. I am going to see if we have some yogurt as that has been ok as has pudding. It surprises me a bit of how much the texture of food is making me not want to eat so many things. There are things that I can substitute with I think, like I did make some smoked beans, so I am going to try and eat those in the morning or also have some cereal. Cereal has been ok even when the texture of other things has not been pleasant. I need to figure out how to get over this fatigue. I also need to replace the batteries in the scale so I can see how much I weight right now, as I have not weighed myself in a week or so now I think. I have not heard back yet about whether I am going to get drained on Thursday. I was supposed to get a call today but I have not received one as of yet. If it does not come tomorrow then I think that I will try and make a phone call to see. Xavier just brought me some pudding, and swallowing it worked out fine, but it seems to sit heavy in my stomach at the moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I saw some preliminary results from my CT scan today. Sometimes when I get sent them it worries me because I do not know if it is good or not. The results are unremarkable which is a good thing. There is no evidence of spread in my chest area and nothing has changed since April and all of the lymph nodes seem fine. They still need to look at the abdomen area, but peritoneal cancer is not evident under CT and it requires visual inspection. I had the visual inspection and the biopsy which both showed up as clear. We will see what the next results indicate but I am looking forward to taking a break from the chemotherapy. I feel very rough this round and I am not looking forward to what the next round will be like. I had thought things were getting much better, but when things like this happen it makes it tough. I am so tired.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mel’s father came over and they started to put up the pergola today. It actually comes in two boxes with two different deliveries and has different sizes on the box. What a wonderful system that is. Inside one of the boxes it indicated what the box codes were and they all matched so this makes far more sense for us now. There is still some work to do with putting it up, but the frame is up now and iti s just the shade parts that need to be installed. I am not sure when that will happen next. Mel also thinks that I should look into getting a bigger pig because she keeps on saying I am inviting more people. She was the only one that had invited people and I had not as of yet, and as of right now we do not even know how many people are coming as not everyone has confirmed. Once we know I am going to see if we should get a bigger pig or not. With how tired I am, I am not sure if I want to go in or just make a phone call tomorrow to see, but we also need something for dinner and I was planning on buying some meat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Grade 8 is an interesting time as you then need to decide where you want to go for high school. When I was young there were not as many options as there are now. You could go to Lasalle if you wanted the public school board or you would attend either Marymount, the all girl school, or St. Charles the all boys school. Most of my friends were going to St. Charles so it was not much of an issue for me to figure out where I was going. For my whole life I had always gone to a Catholic school and that was not going to change then. I do recall though a lot of people that I knew trying to figure out which school they would attend. Most of the people that ended up going to the public school I never maintained any sort of a relationship with. Once they went to that school I do not think that I ever talked to them again. Contrast this to Xavier when he decided where he was going to school. He had a lot of different options, between several french schools, catholic and public schools. He opted to attend College Notre Dame for their hockey program and the coaches were ecstatic that he was going to be going there. It is amusing that he is dropping the program this year so he can focus more on course works to advance his academics. His friends have scattered across all of the different schools and they keep on trying to convince him to change, but he likes his school where his goal is to win the Governor General Bronze medal for highest grade. If he stays where he is, he probably has the best chance of winning it compared to another larger school. He can be competitive though so I do not think that it would deter him. The old St. Charles was a lot different than the current iteration that exists now. There was a loose dress code and there were still priests and clergy teaching classes. I did not mind the all boys school and in some ways it was nice. When I was in grade 7 & 8 I remember they had school dances and events, and I would skip most of them because I never cared enough to attend. We asked Xavier if they had these events and he is oblivious to whether they exist or not, while we know of other schools and kids who socialize far more. Xavier takes after me in a lot of ways like that and his friends is what I think will force him to socialize more. The interesting part though is that Xavier will hang out with Mel and I in the coffee area for hours just chatting or hanging out. Olivier will dive into his room and hide out, but he is far more social at times. It is an interesting combination to see how they act at home compared to out in the real world. I think that playing competitive hockey has really helped bring Xavier out of his shell and make him more social.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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I am still struggling today and I do not like it. I think that it may be due to me having difficulties eating, as that is impacting my energy levels and leading to fatigue. There is a lot of food where the texture is not sitting right and it makes me not want to eat….<\/p>\n